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Broke

1091004_foggy_forestWell.  I just want to make it clear that I’m totally broke.  I have about $1700 to my name and it’ll be $1200 after I pay rent today.  Times are pretty tough.  And I picked the worst time to graduate from school.

One thing I do have is time, which I’m pouring into affiliate marketing.  I’m no expert by any means.  Hell, I just started in August.  But I’ve read far too many success stories to not believe it’s a real way to make money.  Hell, I’ve already made a little from it.  Not much brag about, but enough to make me believe.  I have one site up and I’m doing SEO on that while finishing up my second site.

It’s a lot of work, and I can understand why a lot of people don’t keep with it.

But, hell.  What else is there for me?  I have a masters degree in a field that’s getting raked over the coals by the economy so I can’t get a job in that industry.  No one else will even look at me because I’m “over educated.”  So all that’s left is for me to make money on my own online.

I honestly feel a little betrayed by my industry.  I went to school for six years, I have two degrees in my field.  I worked for three years in offices, and when I left to go back to grad school everyone was slapping me on the back and telling me that they would keep a cubicle open for me when I graduate.

Now it’s nothing but chirping crickets.

Screw all this.  This isn’t a way to live a life.  In servitude to some company that will just turn a cold shoulder to you when times are hard.  People often say that their co-workers are like family.  Is this how you treat family?

I’m done with the broken model of working for someone else.  Even if I did get a job at an office, I would only take it grudgingly, and I would use every spare cent I had to fuel my own business ventures until I could quit.

I feel like the past few months have really transformed me and I know that there’s no way I can go back to the person I was before.

Yes, like anyone else starting out with making money online, I find myself filled with doubt and uncertainty.  I find it depressing and disheartening to check Google Analyics or Clickbank each morning only to see a small trickle of visitors and no commissions.

So, why do I keep going when I’m discouraged?

Simply because there’s really nothing else for me to do.  All I can do is keep typing away, writing articles, building websites, building backlinks.  I know that some day this will pay off, and all I can do till then is keep plugging away till then.

Don’t Give Up on Your Dreams

1193228_doodled_desks_2If you’re trying to change something in your life, or do something that scares you, you must first solidify your goals in your own mind.  Tell yourself over and over again that what you want is indeed possible.  Seek out others that have done what you want and listen only to them.  Don’t let people that don’t understand try to shake your self-confidence.

My girlfriend is finally starting college after dreaming about it for several years.  Classes started yesterday, and last Friday she got a letter from the school saying that they were not offering her any financial aid.  This was a tough blow for us.  We had one weekend to scrounge up a few thousand dollars.  However, I’m pretty much broke and she’s doing her best to keep us afloat.

We just didn’t have the dough.

I felt horrible.  Here I was encouraging her to go back to school, but I couldn’t even help her out.  I’m nearly unemployable.  No one in my industry is hiring (thanks to the economy) and with my masters degree I’m far too “over educated” for any other type of job out there.  All I have is my bootstrap internet business, which is still in the process of materializing.

It was probably the worst feeling I could imagine to sit there holding her and feeling her dream just shriveling up and dying.  And worst yet, I couldn’t help but feel somehow responsible.

She told her dad and he tried to discourage her from going to school.  I told my mom, but she just said some wishy-washy do-nothing nonsense like, “Well, the universe might just be telling her that it’s not time to go to school.” (No, the universe isn’t telling her anything.  It’s the school telling her that they can’t give her money)

That pissed me off.  I really hate it when people pretend to be all spiritual and then just end up sitting on their ass while they wait for a big dump truck full of gold coins to drive up to their house.

No, if you want something, you have to take action to get it.

I wasn’t going to sit on my ass.  I was seeing this as a challenge that we could overcome if we tried hard enough.  I don’t have the quote in front of my right now, but I believe Napoleon Hill once wrote something to the effect of, “Within every adversity is the seed of an equal or greater benefit.”

It was disheartening to hear all these people trying to tell her to put her dream on hold.  Especially since she’s already been doing that for a few years now.  And after finally working up the courage to go back to school, discouraging comments are the last thing she needs.

We spent the weekend weighing options.  Hell, I even looked into participating in focus groups and paid psychological experiments at the university.  In the end, she dropped one of her classes and signed up for a monthly tuition payment plan.  I tacked on half of the price to my mounting credit card debt.

And yesterday, she went to school for the first time in years.

We didn’t listen to all the nay-sayers.  We didn’t sit on our asses praying that some magical scholarship would just fall out of the sky.  We took action and we got results.  What’s most important to me, though is that she has now grown.  She jumped over the hurdle of starting college, and I don’t know how yet, but I know that that will change her life.

Don’t let people bring you down.  Don’t let them discourage you.  Don’t listen to all the smoke they blow up your ass.  Be solid and strong in your dreams, and never give up on them.  If you can have faith in even the darkest night, you will live to see the sun rise.

…A Single Step

1116547_trees_in_autumn_and_sidewalkSo, here I am beginning this blog.  I’m here documenting my journey toward a more intentional life.  I’m questioning things that society tells us to do.  And I’m striving for a life that is truly unique, truly my own.  I want to consciously choose as much as I can instead of sleepwalking through life.  I don’t want to merely accept the aspirations that others tell me.  What if I don’t want a house with a white picket fence in the suburbs?  What if I don’t want 2.5 kids?  What if I don’t want a BMW or any of that crap?

Recently I graduated from ASU with a masters degree.  There are no jobs to be found these days.  That’s honestly okay with me.  Last summer I had a horrible office job.  It was mind-numbingly boring and everyday I violated my own personal values.  I decided then that I didn’t want to have a 9-5 job anymore.  Right now I’m trying to find my own way of earning income.  I’m learning how to set up affiliate websites to generate income.  I’ve made a few sales, but not enough to support myself and my girlfriend yet.  I’m learning the ropes as I go.

So that’s where I am now.  I suspect that the scope of this blog will begin to expand as time goes on, for right now though, I’m a little single-minded in finding a source of income.

Welcome, and I hope you enjoy taking this journey with me.

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